Writing Wings For You

Marie Lukasik Wallace ~ # I LIVE Poetry – I'm passionate about life and writing and all things creative and poetic!

Sometimes Writing is Just Hard

6 Comments

I’ve always loved to write.  It’s like reading a delicious book.  It takes your imagination galloping on adventures.  You feel wild and free.

But there are days, like today, that writing is elusive.  The words are chained to an anchor at the bottom of an ocean, and I don’t have the strength to pull that anchor up. 

You see, I am authoring a book about my dad, a simple, courageous man who overcame alcohol and is leading a happy, simple life.  The writing started from interviews and then it became an essay and now I’m writing his story.  I’m hoping this story will heal my family because there has been much pain.  But the story is not an easy one to write.  First, it’s not my story.  I don’t even know all the characters yet.  Second, it’s my dad!  Who wants to screw that up?   Next, I am interviewing a “vaulted” man, a man who never really let us in as kids and didn’t express emotion.  Lastly, there’s that added tricky bonus, he has later stages of Alzheimer’s.   Now that’s a very tricky beast!  Not only does it play with time periods and events, it sometimes keeps me from interviewing him.  I will probably talk about that part in another post because it’s a painful process that deserves it’s own category. 

On good days, my dad lets out a little emotion and snippets of stories.  Sometimes I get to ask more questions, and sometimes, when it’s more real and raw, the locks on the vault reappear and I don’t get to know more.  Then I write stories from bones….It’s hard to write stories from bones.  You need muscles to get it moving…and sometimes I have to build the muscles from snippets.  And that’s like putting together a puzzle that’s all the same color!

For now, what I get to enjoy is this time with my dad.  Because these little morsels of time where he opens up, even if for only a small time, it’s glorious and my soul dances.  I am truly living in gratitude, but oh, how I wish we could have started sooner.

Author: writingwingsforyou

#I LIVE POETRY and all things creative. I LOVE words. They hold so much power to bring joy and healing and play into an otherwise ordinary life. Words can also shift the world into a better place. Let's explore! Let's create! Let's heal... ~ Love, Marie Lukasik Wallace

6 thoughts on “Sometimes Writing is Just Hard

  1. This is a touching post. I think it’s wonderful and brave that you’re writing about your dad. I believe you when you say it’s hard, but what a worthwhile project. I wish you both the best!

    Like

  2. I have really enjoyed your posts! Your dedication to writing about your dad inspires me! Paul

    Like

  3. Thank you Paul! I think writers understand all the ups and downs of writing, and we can commiserate together. Thanks for stopping by!

    Like

  4. Intriguing, your comment about the puzzle where all the pieces are the same color. Reminds me of an autistic student who made puzzles only using the gray side. I’m thinking there’s a connection here. Have no regrets, you’re together and saving the stories. Toni

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s